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I wrote this back in 2019
“Create in me a clean heart O God and renew a right spirit within me Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation,and uphold me with a willing spirit.” Psalm 51:10-12
I’m learning to ignore and overlook many things because I truly want happiness in my life. The easiest way to be miserable in life is to think that everybody is talking about you. Never allow anyone to steal your joy from you! What people say about me is none of my business as long as I continue staying true to myself because no matter what situation I find myself in, people will always talk so I might as well do what makes me happy and pleases God. Anyone that cant feel my pain has no right to judge me! Most of the people that talk about you behind your back are probably secretly wishing for a life like yours.
Never allow anyone to put you in a position of depression and self pity in life! They will end up holding it over your head and use that to control you! Remember, those who have no joy in their life will always find a way to remove happiness from other people’s life (energy vampires). Negative minds will never give you a positive life. When The Grace of God is on your life enemies are inevitable.
NEVER feel bad when old friends and family become new enemies! They got tired of pretending to love you. Allow yourself to grieve the loss and move on, your people will find you and eventually they will realize that they were the problem all along and not you. Keep standing out and shining your light. You don’t need to be accepted by anyone, you just need to accept yourself. Don’t beg for love, don’t beg for friendship, DON’T BEG PERIOD! Anything you accept through begging will require begging to maintain or retain! You do not have time for that, use that same energy to talk to God! He certainly doesn’t require you to beg for anything!
Some people will love you and some people will hate you, either way they are both in your favor. When they love you, you live peacefully and happily in hearts! When they hate you, you become a special guest in their head living painfully in their mind everyday and giving them sleepless nights all while you’re in your bed sleeping good every night!
Keep going! Don’t stop! The only time you should look back is with a thankful heart, because you see where God has brought you from compared to where you are right now!
